Monday, December 14, 2020

Losing the Light

I went on a bike ride this evening to look at Christmas lights. When I left, the sun hadn't set yet, but as I biked, I gradually lost the light. Thankfully, I had brought some good bike lights with me, and a reflector vest, so when the light started to get dangerously low, I turned on the lights I had brought, so I could safely see and be seen as I rode around, looking at all the lovely Christmas lights.

The world goes through daily cycles of light and darkness. We can always count on the sun to light our days, unless we're way too close to a pole or under other extraordinary circumstances. Even on heavily overcast days, the sun reliably gives us enough light to see by. Yet, we can always count on the sun to set beyond the horizon, taking its light with it. Without the light of the sun, we will be plunged into darkness. 

But that doesn't mean that we have to go without light entirely. While the moon and stars don't generally shed enough light to do us much good, we can make our own light, usually with fire or electricity (tonight, I chose the latter). But, with but fire and electricity, the light it gives us only lasts so long. Man-made lights use energy. When the energy runs out, the light goes out. When you run out of juice in your batteries and you run out of firewood to burn, your light will fail.

However, losing the light isn't the end of the world. Daylight will return when it's supposed to, just as it always does, and you were probably going to go to sleep long before then anyway. While it's helpful to have a light source handy every waking second, not all of our seconds will be waking ones. We can live without light for a few hours each day. What's important is that we make our light last as long as we need it to. We can count on daylight during the day, but we need to make sure that, during the day, we gather enough energy to make our man-made lights last as long as we need them to.

There's almost certainly an obvious, light-based analogy in here somewhere. If we think of the light as spiritual light, then daylight could easily represent the light that comes from God, and our man-made lights could represent the spiritual light in ourselves: our own testimonies. It's easy to believe and have faith and be faithful when God and His light are readily available, but we know that we're not always going to be that lucky. There will be times of spiritual darkness, during which we will need to rely on our own spiritual light. When those times come, we can only hope that we have enough personal spiritual light to last us until the spiritual daylight returns. So, to prepare for those times of spiritual darkness, we need to gather as much personal spiritual light as we can.

God's light is abundant when available, but sometimes distant. Our own personal lights are constantly available, but limited and probably weak. Losing the light in terms of daylight or perhaps even God's light is inevitable, but temporary. Losing the light in terms of our own personal lights is usually preventable through sufficient preparation and extremely dangerous when not prevented.

The sun will continue to rise and fall, as it does, but as long as we carry light with us, "losing the light" doesn't necessarily mean that we will be completely deprived of light.

Sunday, December 13, 2020

A Day of Rest

For the last several days, I've been working on a report for school. It has been time-consuming and stressful, and I'm not proud of everything I said and did while under the effects of that stress. But this morning, I submitted my report, and I spent the rest of the day relaxing, attending church meetings, watching youtube videos, and resting. It was a nice change of pace. I'm thankful that I was able to spend most of today relaxing and resting. I think it was good for me and for my relationships with other people. I'm thankful that the semester is basically over now and that, for me, today was a day of rest.

Saturday, December 12, 2020

Challenging Lessons

Elder Bednar spoke of how challenging 2020 has been and then said "I pray that we as individuals and families are learning the valuable lessons that only challenging experiences can teach us."

In Dungeons & Dragons, characters gain Experience, which helps then grow in skill and ability, only by overcoming challenges. Without challenges, they don't gain experience, and they don't grow.

In both D&D and real life, people need to face challenges in order to grow. It is only by facing challenges that we can learn those lessons and become more capable in those ways.

There are lessons that we need to learn in life, and some of those lessons can only be learned by facing challenges. That part of the reason why there are so many challenges built into mortal life. My hope is that we will be wise enough to learn from those challenges and not resent having to face them.

Friday, December 11, 2020

Mormon Remained

Something that struck me as we read the last few verses of Moroni 8 tonight is that Mormon kept fighting alongside the Nephites, even though he knew that they were basically doomed. He knew that they would be justly destroyed if they didn't repent, and he knew how unlikely it was that they would repent. Yet, he stayed by their side. This suggests to me that he possessed an enormous degree of either of two traits: hope or loyalty.

It's possible that Mormon had a ridiculous amount of hope. He knew that the Nephites weren't likely to repent, but miracles happen. Maybe he was hoping that, against all odds, they might repent.

Or maybe he was willing to die with them anyway. Maybe he had so much love and compassion for his people, sinners though they were, that he was willing to die with them, even though they clearly didn't deserve his help.

Either way, Mormon was quite a person. It's amazing that he was willing to stay with the Nephites, despite everything they were doing and everything that was happening to them. I don't know if I would have stayed by their side that long. Mormon's example of either hope or loyalty is incredible. He must have been quite a man.

I don't know exactly why Mormon remained with the other Nephites as long as he did, but I find it inspiring that he did.

Thursday, December 10, 2020

Happy to Help

Today, despite having my own homework to work on and making terribly little progress on it, I spent some time today helping others with their homework, and I'm glad I did. It felt good to be able to help them, even though I could have used that time for myself. I hope to have enough time to get my work done over the next two or three days, but I'm glad that I spent some time today helping others. It felt good to help.

Wednesday, December 9, 2020

The Extent of Self-Sacrifice

To what extent is self-sacrifice a good thing? Naturally, being selfish is bad, and putting others before oneself is (generally) good, but is there a limit? Is there a point at which self-sacrifice becomes pointless, and perhaps even immoral? I would argue that there is. Self-sacrifice, taken to an extreme, can become self-destructive. Sometimes, people give so much of their time and energy that they end up hurting themselves. Those who spend too much of their time and emotional energy dealing with other people's problems may not have enough time and energy left to deal with their own. It's good to help others, but not to the point of hurting yourself. You are a child of God as much as anyone. Hurting one child of God to help another isn't always a good idea. So, before you sacrifice yourself for the good of someone else, carefully consider how much you're about to sacrifice compared to how much good your sacrifice will do. If the sacrifice is greater than the good that will come of it, perhaps making that sacrifice may not be the wisest decision. If the hurt outweighs the help, it may be best not to engage in that extent of self-sacrifice.

Tuesday, December 8, 2020

Not All Criminals Are Evil

Adjacent to my thoughts from last night, I wrote an essay today about how I don't think that all criminals are evil. Many of them are motivated by very human needs and emotions, and are often victims (or survivors) of tragedies themselves. I believe that many criminals are more worthy of sympathy than blame. Hurt people hurt people, and I'd rather heal that hurt than hurt them back more. I don't think of criminals as evil people who need to be punished. Criminals are unfortunate people who need help.